I back Ipoh on thursday night. 23th December.
I stay my cousin house one day of overnight.
then i think i next day back my home and went to find him.
This few days on HK. i miss my Mother and Him.
But,can make sure i most miss that one is him. i never leave him one day or two day.
This Trip will leave him for almost one week. for me , is a long long time.
hard to spend my days. everynight hope can On Facebook to told him , i missing him.
Finally, i really back Ipoh.
Sorry , my first target not to found you. i Online Facebook to check him.
i wanna know he this few days when i leave him, what he did.
I view his Blog with expectation.
He promise me he will wrote down this few days without me is how to spend.
Actually I never tried the day without him. But, he tried.
Sigh, i am sorry to him. When i leave him few days , he will cranky.
But, if i have choice. i will choose dont want to go .i dont wanna leave him.
when i saw his blog. i had one conclusion . He will break up with me.
did everything without mood. my heart already get hurt.
we quarrel whole night with tears until almost 7am.
You know this time i make a decision. I choose break up.
and i know he get mad and hurt deeply. i know all is my fault .
If i treasure him wont have this happened. if not we are should happiness now.
I am tired to cried. this worst since the quarrel. Is hurt each other.
Next day, i changed the relationship on Facebook. I am Single.
after i click the SAVE, i hope i am dreaming. but, i should accepted the truth.
i sent a message to him. for last message .
Not dare to pick up his call. finally , my cousin pick up herself. talk to him.
actually i am beside her and listen what their talking about.
already tired on this situation. Quarrel, Cry,Angry,Jealous.
Sigh. when can spend the days without those?
All my friend knew we is Break up. Bad news Or Good news?
Kong call me . she ask me what happened we had. Thanks for care.
My friend date me to go out.I thought i will stay at home alone.
Christmas eve i should hang out with my friends and happily.
Single Day for me.
Lavish. I dont know how to cheer up. only know drink alot.
i accompany Kong went to toilet. she is crying. she make me thinking about him again.
She affect my mood. Gosh, I cried again.
they are looking my crying face. is fucking shame.
i destroy the ambience. Celim and 'Him' wipe my tears.
they ask me where is my boyfriend .How i answer them?
Sorry im drunk. cant stand and walk steady.
when i drunk, i know i am talk alot nonsense .cant remember.==
and I hope i can see him again. But where is him?
I miss him. I really hope he will get back .
they are help me to find him, When he hugging me i thought i am dreaming .
i can feel his warm body , i can hear his sound. :)
feel like more safety. because he is only one can give me safety.
hmm.... why i will went his house? I hurt his mother when i drunk.
ophss. sorry to his mother. i not purposely.
finally, i overnight there. that means we recouple back?or what?
my mother missed call many times . i will get scold from my mother.
But , never mind. He is most important. I dont care all else anymore.
Actually , our relation is become better? why i had no feeling?
Hope we will continue the happiness life.
Yesterday , 26th december.
I stay at home whole day. at night.
Someone told me somethings on msn. that is top secret for we both.
about Lavish that night.i think i would have felt. she told me is real.
i cant do anything, i should be a good girlfriend.:)
This is what i should do now. i want a happiness life with him and enjoyment.
Babe I Love You So Much.
You remember a song? 'Hurt so Bad'
this song not prove i am sad or get hurt .
the lyrics is got meaningful
Bady I Love You So Much
你走了 我的心在淌血
Bady You Hurt Me So Bad
想要你回到 我的世界
Bady I Love You So Much
你给我的诺言 已经瓦解
Bady You Hurt Me So Bad
只要我们都爱着 无论多苦都值得
I really love you. Edwin WonG .
