Recently.

Day by day . already 1 week didnt update me blog.
Wednesday. adsent today.
yesterday, a terrifying nightmare appear on my dream.
midnight 3something, be wet with cold sweat.
my mother not beside me. make me have a fear!
the nightmare is like. hm...... i going to die.
NO! NO!NO! fortunately, just a nightmare.
i cant alone stay at bedroom. must find a person rescue and accompany me.
i call him . edwin .. hahahhahahahhahahahaha.
we chat 1hour, he really is my best Brother.best Sister.
thank you accompany me yesterday when i frightened.
and. today , my daddy gonna back to work.
he will leave me again for work ,oversea
chinese new year, he will back again , you know, i reluctantly he leave!
miss my daddy so much.

I relationship with my classmate on Facebook.
outsider dont misunderstand, we just a friend. no any feelings on her.
'HER' she is a girl , lesbian. you thought im will become lesbian?
I WONT!!!!
even though , i am like/love girls before. But, i changed

My exam result,
OH MY GOSH, feel compunction about those Red Score.
Sigh, i not dare let my mother see that result.
im whole class of no.18 , worst 99
hm....

Merdeka. Hari Kebangsaan is coming soon.
countdown? where i can go?
bla bla bla,troublesome and annoyance.
i wanna go clubbing er. hm...... should how?

Honeykiss, i miss you
Daddy , i miss you
Brother, i miss you
Friends, i miss you.


The End :)

you are my everythings.

non-stop missing
non-stop thinking
non-stop crying.
non-stop hurting...
all NONSTOP.
all is about you.
all is yours
all is your memory.
Mr.D . you know i mssing you?
you know miss a person very suffer?
never mind. i know ownself.
when you leave until today. everyday also cryed.
until now also crying for you. come back to me. can?
even though is read your name also will make me cry.
you really dont love me anymore?
i intend accept others . and quite give up you.
finally, my heart only got you.
i miss you hand help me wipe my tears.
but, start from we break that day. this is impossible.
why want revenge to me? i surrender.
Love is wat?
Promise is wat?
only a kiss ,only a embrace also no meaning.
I Cant Leave Without You. is true.
just let me Love you quietly.
. already moody continue to write anythings.






End.

Dream wont come true

At Barroom yesterday. i drunk.
i saw many friends there. long time no see.
drunk~ i sat at Barroom parking there. my friends is take care me.
i few time want to fall down. cant steady myself.
Thomas ask me why drink so much. ask where is my boyfriend.
he means is 'him' . said go Sg find him.
you know this sentence is like a knife stick in my heart.
didnt cry become cryed,how many times i cryed for him again?
if i can go Sg . i must going find him. but he already got girlfriend.

.Today wake up early, went hospital visit my grandpa again.
4something, i went my cousin to online with laptop.
8something, i ate with cousin at outside.
i gotta back home. after shower , i lie down on the bed.
gradually,i fall to sleep.

next day. Monday.
Exam day again. im moody again. i missing him so much.
i hope he wont appear on my mind. but cant do it.
before start the exam. ''she'' tell me. many happen about saturday.
those events, i just only can said UNBELIEVABLE.make me so shock.
and. she advise i give up him better, i wanna ask reason, but exam is start.
this question appear in my mind so long time. i rather go suicide. i cant concentrate on exam.
finally, finished. i ask her many times.
eventually. she tell me. he already got girlfriend.
when i hear this. my brain is stop to thinking everything. is blank.
only drop the tears. i really want give up? hurt so much!
give up a person not easily . you know? need a lot of time. need waste many energy.
i can quit clubbing for him. i really love him.
but i think i just can hide the feelings in my heart deeply.
is time to give up all. is a nightmare, please dont let me dream about him again.
dont give me a expectation. will not dream come true.
dream and the facts the difference. so cruel. hopeless.
sigh... how can cheer up?

If We Ever Meet Again

What is someone like you doin in a place like this?
Say Did you come alone or did you bring all your friends?
Say whats your name , What are you drinking
Think I know what are you thinking
Baby whats your sign tell me yours and ill tell you mine
Say Whats somebody like you doin in a place like this

Ill never be the same if we ever meet again
Whooooon't let you get awaaay
Say if we ever meet again,
This free-falls, got mee sooo, kiss me all,
Night, Don't ever let me go
Ill never be the same if we ever meet again

Do you come here much? I swear ive seen your face before.
Hope You don't see me flash but I cant help but want you more, more
Baby tel me whats your story I aint shy don't you worry
Im flirtin' with my eyes, I wanna leave with you tonight.
Do you come here much? ive gotta see your face some more
(some more cause baby i)

I'll never be the same - if we ever meet again
Won't let you get away-ay - say, if we ever meet again
This free fall's, got me so
Kiss me all night, don't ever let me go
I'll never be the same

If we ever meet again

If we ever meet again
I'll have so much more to say (if we ever meet again)

If we ever meet again
I wont let you go away (said if we ever meet again)

If we ever meet again
I'll have so much more to say (say if we ever meet again)

If we ever meet again
I wont let you go away-ay-ay

I'll never be the same - if we ever meet again
Won't let you get away-ay - say, if we ever meet again
This free fall's, got me so
Kiss me all night, don't ever let me go
I'll never be the same
If we ever meet again

I'll never be the same - if we ever meet again
Won't let you get away-ay - say, if we ever meet again
This free fall's, got me so
Kiss me all night, don't ever let me go
I'll never be the same
If we ever meet again

im annoyance

Saturday Clubbing. Barroom. drunk.
Sunday JJ. late.hmmmm. my cousin ffk ~
i really hope my cousin can go JJ with me.
Ccl, Mun q,Pikachu,Bee,Kong cl and me.
intend watch movie. but i g0 there already late.
only watch 15minutes more movie is end. ==
after then,we went bought somethings. Go Coffee Bean drink.
we all almost back at 5something.
firstly, stay at Mun q home there to waiting .
we 3 chat many topi in her bedroom.talk without cease
actually , i not first time go her house and bedroom.
when i saw her bedroom. i just can say Messy.
dont know use word to describe her room.
Back to my cousin house.
1/8/2010 is my youngest cousin birthday. she just 1year old.
is a cute Baby.we go celebrate her birthday.
a lot of people there. her parents invite many friends and relative too.
ate the Buffet there. and saw my cousin ,we chat and ate there.
my cousin is a TADIKA teacher. hahahahaa. 20years old already.
she look like polite and pretty!
stay there few hours, is time to back.
i take photo with Ce Lim phone. >>>


Afterward, i go shower and clear my bedroom. look like messy too.
my brother using my laptop, i cant online that moment.
when my brother leave , i online quickly. i miss my Facebook..
my cousin Hk msn nudge me. she ask me how about today JJ?
i tell back her. i moody today and tak syok also.!plus got abit angry.
i tell her wat happen and express my feelings.
we webcam and use handfree to talk. i thought want use phone to called her.
but she said dont want. use msn chat better than phone.
we chat already few hours. im mood become better.
thanks for my cousin accompany. we chat people gossip. and bad things.
comment on people. and many many.
about school, family, friends. and love. when i can see her again?
finish chat with cousin. next one is Edwin , he find me before when i chat with my cousin.
i neglect. hm... sorry about it.
we both chat about nonsense also can chat 1hour more.
bored```~~
almost 5am. i still didnt sleep, 5something,my mother call me wake.
but. end the call, i sleep back again...
i missed my bus. = WTF. dont scold me and blame. just because i freaking tired.
haih.
arrived the school ,somebody absent again.and no Perhimpunan.
form 3 student are confront their trial exam .
i sit with Yee Ling. chat many!!!
after rest, i get ready to sleep in the classroom. sleep complementary .
sleep at library,and classroom. times up!
back home, keep sleeppppppppppppppppppppppppppp
wake up at 6somethings. and eat my dinner. and online.
got a Bad News. my grandfather is sick. he already 70++ .
is very worry about him. got a sentences is 家有一老如有一宝。
hm....... annoyance..... pray for my gandfather.