Normal School Day.

Normal of school day.
Raining today,feel cold and comfortable.
raining day for me is a best time to sleep.
2 period of Pj.
i get ''dimerit'' ,because i didnt wear PJ shirt.
signature at the Red Paper. triple star of my signature. HAHAHAHA
finish the PJ. i only realize whole body are sweat. HOT !!
Science.
i often talk to my teacher as like my friend . she hou cute gah. xD
she teach us with patiently. explain with chinese, mandarin,english.
After school. stay at school for learn Drawing.
actually, i have no interesting to learn. The teacher force me :(
3.35pm, my mum came fetch me .
she need to go for payment. i used her phone for photograph. heesss.


my selfloving ~~
return home.
after bath, ate my lunch.
At living room watching the 705 channel.
Music Factory.
lying on the sofa, fall to asleep.
almost 11 waked. eat dinner again.
online.
nothing to do. bored
Facebook? hmm.....
Msn chat with friends.
and now 2.23.
is time to enjoy my sweet dream. goodnight
imisshim :D

FML

Saturday, hangout at 5something. with my bitchie.

Kbox again please.

8pm, Kopitiam ,both of us chat with cigarettes are accompany.

Went to Tesco waiting Victoria.

We are Club tonight.

Old Place. Club9

sigh. because Friday night have checking .

underage are prohibited from entering. include me.

But, i can passed through finally.

actually , i not so enjoy the club last night.

how say? i hope i can enjoy the club with my lover.

stranger? sorry , i very unwilling .

guys, please fuck off to my side. dont thought i am a kid.

and i just have intimate actions with my lover.

i need to take care of her. she have a bad mood and cry.

fetch her back home. and i ate supper with brother's friends.

after drink alcohol the stomach is freaking hungry.

return home.

bath and brush my teeth. have taste of cigarette.

and go bed.

7am waked up find something to eat and continue my beautiful nightmare.

Sunday ,waked at almost 7.

cooked noodles to feed my stomach , after that online .

11something, go shower with my slow motion.

and prepare the things for next day school.

sleep at almost 1.

3something wake. i cant continue fall to sleep .

waiting the time spend while update my blog.

seriously, i really miss him whole day.

i get rid cigarette and dont g0 club.

i can do that. Trust me :D

失魂落魄.

和平常一样,上学,下课,放学.
回家.
每天回家都会先看电话.再去冲凉.
冲凉过后就是我要睡午觉的时候.
昨天又有睡不着的晚上.
知道想念一个人真的可以令你茶饭不思.寝食不安.
9点多醒了,肚子的确饿了.在学校吃得又不饱 .
一个两个出去了.我又一个人留在家了.真的够惨!
我已经两天没上网了.
今天一定要上到够够才睡.
听歌,看8卦,跟她msn谈天.
没事做来做个自恋人吧.

LOL. i know that is not nice ==

明天我应该怎么办?我不很想去club.
曾经说过不去了.乖乖在家的.会不会不守信用?
明天再打算吧.
时间很像过得很快.几个钟头就过了.半夜了!
我依然坐在电脑面前不知道到底要干什么.
思念病好像又发作了.我又开始想念'他'了.
是不是想我不睡觉?是不是要折磨我?真的干你娘啊!
我究竟是怎么了?整个人都失去自我.灵魂快点归位吧.
不然我真的会崩溃.
他唱的歌,我还真的每天都有在听.怀念下.
跟他谈天真的超级紧张.要很谨慎的写每一句.
小心翼翼的看清楚.
虽然只是短短的几句都已经很足够了.:D
毕竟也只是朋友.
'依然是朋友'

Goodbye

心情很像不太好.好像有点不舍得.
不舍得他又再次离开我,其实他还没回来之前,我已经很期待了.
很期待看见他那讨人喜欢的样子.可是我知道我们只是朋友关系.
我不能因为喜欢他就可以占有他.
我大概也知道他会有不少的也不差的女朋友.
我知道我对他来说只是那么普通的女性朋友.
我都知道.
可是我却是那么的自作多情,是么?
亲密的动作,不代表有亲密的关系.
还以为自己可以把他当作普通朋友对待或看待.
原来真的不容易.
还以为可以把他不当一回事,这么真的那么难?
我曾经想过为了他.可以改掉自己的怀习惯.他不满的我就不做!
我们的关系真的很复杂.连我自己也不懂是什么了.
以前的感觉又回来了.他要离开了.
回想以前, 我也是这样的流泪着,这样的狼狈!
其实只要他的一句话,我就不顾一切的等待他.
可是怎么就是没有这个机会发生?
当他开口说要当她女朋友,我真的整个人都呆了.
不懂要感觉开心还是失落? 他怎么会肯要我?
对着他,我真的没有任何信心.就像以前的交往那样.
我总是犹豫不决,总是顾虑很多.
因为我知道根本没得和别人比.他的目标肯定比我好很多.对么?
是不是我就比较笨蛋?
这次他回去了,不知我又几时能再见他了.
我好想试着再挽留他,虽然我知道是无效的.
可是我该以什么样的身份?
朋友?
还是比朋友好些?
我想我真的再次爱上他了.
好心酸.

Fate :/

Wake up at 12something.
She texted me , i use my slow motion go to prepare.
My Bitches, you are belong to me whole day.
almost 3pm, our first meal eaten at Kopitiam.
What we did whole day?
Kbox! LOL. i love this place. i always sing not enough at there.
although my sound not nice. but had some song is make me touched.
Yes, just only we both. first time sing k with her. feel weird.
stay at Parade many hours. we are hangout and have no target.
Which corner, we have not been there?
texted with him and i miss him too. but he dont know. sigh.
At this time, i need 'C' make me relax.
how i miss that taste?gosh. i love it muchieee.
we went to Kopitiam continue our conversation.
i need a cup of Hot Lemon Tea to clear the taste of cigarettes in my mouth.
almost 10pm, i went her house.
watch movie? MONOPOLY ? nope , i just see they are played at there.
and just waiting his message. hmm.. i bored looked at the phone.
finally, we both chitchat in her bedroom.
woots. 3something! my mum come fetch me finally.
my eyes wanna close soon. how sleepy i am!?
Home sweet Home.
after shower i feel still dont wanna sleep. update my blog.
please. i hope my brain can understand what i want.
dont imagine too much. it will make me mad.
collapse!collapse! collapse.!
he is the only one i care. i dont understand why.
Am i still love him? i hope i guess wrong.
well, single life is suitable to me . right?

Me, Him, Us.

14.03.2010
Gosh of today, i feel myself going mad.
Is that he still important in my heart? or i just expectation to meet him?
i should know, we just a friend,normal and simple friend. right?
never mind.
i still remember , i can because of him to changed myself.
but, finally i didnt change at all. same as before. like to flirt.
i am single now, i feel single life for me is a best choice.
what is Love? sorry , i still dont understand that meaning.
i have no right to love a person. i dont know how to treasure everyone.
single life , have many benefits. if i can choose, i choose single.
i blame myself, why i dont treasure myself, always get hurt by boys.
no more revenge, just let myself know more about this society and world.
Love just a weapons to kill people. how cruel that is?
learn to protect myself. learn to recognize who is good for us.
i wont be stupid and silly again. bla bla bla.
single life, i can enjoyment it.

17.03.2010
Now i sitting in front the Pc, hmm..anything i want write down here?
erm.. about last night, memories is about me and him.
if this world have ''time machine'', i pray i can stop time passed.
Last night, the feeling is come back. gosh , is a big trouble.
He make me blush,abnormal ,heartbeat.
OMG,i falling in love to him again. who else can stop me now?
But, i dont understand myself why super nervous this time?
Am i mad? i reject all the meeting and dating and just wanna meet him.
just awhile also satisfied. i really feel myself is crazy.
We ate at De Garden. chitchat, when he eating, i keep pinch his face.
my face more chubby than his face. LOL.
erm.. he changed. changed to handsome ,humorous, and mature.
dont know how to describe, i just felt.
finally, i own dont like he smoke ,in front me. i snatch his cigarette。
thought wanna throw in to the trash. but his face look like not willing .
sigh, why he changed like that. quit smoking can?
i am not often to smoke. except club.
Jom, Club 9 .just we both.
when he hold my hand. i look at him,he had no expression. LOL
i think wednesday was less people. unbelievable.
not that less, had fun too.
one glass by one glass. i am easily drunk.
plus, i dinner just eat a little bit. the stomach is empty.
could i walk like a straight line? nope,not steady.
actually, drunk add cigarette is enjoyment. i like it. delicious cigarette.
Club with him not that boring,even though just we both.
sorry , that i drunk. take care of me is that very troublesome?
I talk to oneself and alot nonsense in the car . break my image in front him!arghh.
arrived my sweet home.
open the door is a hard thing for me at that moment.
Lying on the sofa. many thing appear turn round and round in my mind. faint.
i vomited at last, alcohol make me suffer. yuckk.
i need to bed.
waked at 7something,i need feed my stomach. it is calling me.
drink a glass of warm honey .make me well.
well, last night had a sweet memories about us.
Keep The Top Secret.