Nobody can be trust?

Today,not a special day for me.
may be write blog is my habit already.
wat i want to express today?hm..... i also dont knw.
may be i boring now. want get somethings to do.
our life gt alot of things to worry or think over.
im 16years old.
wat i worrying now?
4 parts, Family ,School record, Friendships and Love
such of these i need to worry.
Family. i am single-parent family. only got my mother beside me.
i scare when i lost my mother.wat will happen to me.
seem like a orphan. my father is oversea. dont know how long can see him once.
School record. When i study at secondary school. i gradually become a naughty student.
may be is friends affect me become a stubborn and naughty.
and my result little by little is worst.
gosh!!! feel like self reproach.apologize to my Family.
Friendship. im form4 now. when i stay at this phase.
everywhere is gossip around on you.
and not all of friends also can put much dependence on.
somethings can tell . somethings only can believe yourself.
i hate pretend. pretend like so friendly or close with whose.
if really want be a friend with whoever. please dedicate yours sincere.
i not saying who.please use your sincere treat your friends.
and dont selfish ,insult, arrogant ! this like making my feel strong dislike or disgust.
please respect yourself and others people.
Love. i be in love already 4times. got many memories of each others.
I agree a sentence. Love Is Blind.
when i falling in Love. i can neglect or ignore my family and friends.
every times when i separate with lover. i will learn from experience.
must always remind ownself dont easily to final conclusion.
every times experience barter with tears..
this is very cruel for me. hm.......
who can be worthy to trust?

delete you on my mind .

Skip the introductory.
hmm... at last friday ,means 23.07.2010 , i went fun fair with MUNQ.
we played madly at there. and played some terrifying things.
wat the hell ! when i play that things, i shout loudly. cause im afraid.
afraid until my tears is drop. and my leg is tremble.
many people will say ''fun fair'' only children will go ,include me also said like thah.
but when munq date me ,we played at there. i realize before im wrong.
that is playful. but waste alot of money also.
but, unlucky things is occur on me,I LOST MY PHONE.
actually. i didnt feel sob, i care about my memory card. it is collect my memories.
never mind, i still can play happily.
when i back home, i not dare to tell my mother anymore.
i thought she will scold me , she ready to go out. i online until she back home.
this time ,i must tell her, ermmm.................hardly to tell her.
finally i told.
hahhaahahahahhahahhahaha, she only said how can play until lost the phone.
it is praise or blame? xD i dont care.
already lost it. whatever lar. waiting the new phone.
this few days. is no contact , no text , no call.
look like bored, but so relax in this few days.awesome ...

next affair.
yesterday night, i online Facebook. is bored time.
i saw someone profile appear on my sight.
eventually, i view his profile.
wat i saw?
erm.... i think i dont know how to describe my feelings.only distressed
i must uncork my emotion, i only can say 'i cant stand it'
fortunately my cousin online Msn . i can find her to uncork,
we chat:

after we chat ,she make me recover the confidence and happy.

i swear i wont sob because of him again.

my cousin advise i deleted him on my facebook.

after that i can concentrate to others .wont think too much.

i will be happiness everyday. i miss you cousin , thanks you willing be my listener.

so late sleep yesterday, at school also without vigor. tired so much.

sleep until finish the school then back home shower and online .

online until i tired, start from 5somethings until midnight 1.

this is freaking enough . right?charge full battery

and ate supper and keep online. chatted with friends.

and view the facebook. boreddddd.

feel like long time didnt update my blog.

than i writing here, and recollect my memories.

i miss my Cousin

i miss my Dad& Mum.

i miss my Bro.

and many many .

i will become a person without annoyance.

Family is the First

Recently, dont knw wat going on my mood is fall to valley.
Even though date me or invite me.i almost all refuse.
who affect my mood?
school days or wat events. no interesting on anythings else.
this few weeks. my life seem like quiet ordinary.
sleep early. and wake early.
wat the hell going on of me?
i mAd. i know that is not a good things for me.
I Miss My Family. i need their accompany me always.
i hope my mother can accompany me. and i miss my brother.
although, he is freaking naughty, and always bully me. disturb me.
but i already habit he arise in my life everyday.
he leave for work.
whole place of house is very quietly. who else can chat with me?
yesterday midnight .
someone found me . say want i be his girlfriend.
woah. is that too shocked?suddenly my brain is blank.
is a joke. i buy his idea.
so fast accept the relationship. am i mad?
outsiders must misunderstand our relation.
but i also dont need to explain to everyone.

Everyday also iterate .
how can change my life?i want i everyday without annoyance.
everyday keep the smile to face up everyone.
i feel like lonely everyday. alot of friends equal alone .
i not means my friends is invisible. my friends is give my happy a moment.
when leave them? become alone again.

i miss my cousin Liew Yoke Xin. but i cant always see her.
she really is my good listener.she knw me many things.
and she care me also.she is like simple-minded, no scheming.
that why we so close. no secret. i like this feelings.
and my Lovely mother. she take care me everyday.
she is my all. she is my mother and my father. two in one.
i knw she everyday busy so much. but i also disturb and argue with her .
quiet SUI LUI BAO.
DAD. i waiting for you back. imissyou

erm.. i love a song now. : 21GUNS.
introduce lur. muackz.

keep smile.

didnt go school today.ape tu Parents Day.
my mother say dont want go listen my bad things from teacher.
i didnt force her. as she like.
no credit my phone.
lazy go reload.anythings chat at Facebook or Msn.
someone find me. i no mood to reply.
because he is not my cup of tea. and not i want.
in a suffer day now.
Spending.
how long ?how long?
need how long will steady?
will recover my wounds?
everyday act nothing.syok mie?
haih. but i cant let other people knw im still hurt.
Someone missing Someone.
thx my friends always take care me.
thx her understand my feelings.and console me.
when i take my phone. i just thinking him.
today so brave.i delete all the message about him.
but gt leave a litter bit in my phone.
recollect our memory.he is cute. .
i want habit my single life now,have a nice day .
have a new life. new people ,new target.new everythings .
You are become my memory .
special one :)
keep the smile to face up everyday.

be Strong

GOSH GOSH GOSH.
Break already.
1 MSG:i want to break. .
kay. all OVER.the end.
i accept.done.
i gave hurt again. haih.
whatever.i open facebook go change the relationship.
SINGLE.
i delete the relationship post. i dont want who else comments or like.
may be is best for me.we already no more feelings to each others.
as fast break as good.third times said Break. wat the feelings of this?
first time let a boy hurt me 3 times. first time initiative find a boy.
arghhh .suffer . you knw?
sunday.5somethings waked up thought many things. .i reluctant.
but i know we are OVER.
already impossible.
my mouth said want flirt many guys.
but my heart still thinking about him.
double dealing.im so sucks.
moody to spend whole day.
. already got many people know we happened.!
i know someone glad someone will console me.
ask me wat happen the relationship. i just can answer NOTHING HAPPENED.
act nothing to face up everyone.
my friends ask me. im fine?
yes. im fucking fine.. i can spend the suffer day .
i dont need him also have a excellent life..
PLEASE dont remind his name infront me. ,sigh.
at school today.
my friends feel im so sad .erm.... in front them act nothing and smile to face up.
i dont admit im sad. although is facts.
i need become strong. im a special . cant let own moody and down!
but i endure so long. finally , i cried out.
why so easy cried?. im so useless.
just a little setback .why will cried.
sigh.
she say . when we separate,final discover im still love him.
i had rather throw or forget the memories about him.
I DONT WANT.
when i recollect the memories.i will lose control . dropped my tears.
grrr.. i need tissue.
i need console.
i need times, to forget!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

waste time.

saturday. normal day also.

everythings proceeds as usual.

after ate lunch.i go out with mother.

go see house. new house. go play water there.

4somethings, i dont knw stay home for wat.

BORED BORED BORED.

i want brother play badminton with me.

5somethings until 7somethings. sweat.

after that,go eat dinner with mother and bro.

while i text with HIM ..

i only eat a little bit. and take photo there.

back .at home selfloving. take photo.

my hair look like tidy. xD

play awhile PSP .
and go shower. smelly from my body . xD
and i online awhile. chat with friends.
and actually i really miss him.haih.
waste my times to miss him. he also enjoy his clubbing, GOSH. im stupid.

HMK birthday

Friday 2.07.2010.
is our dai ka jie BIRTHDAY.
we all go parade Kbox celebrated.
walked awhile parade. then back Kbox sing k.
long time didnt sing 99.not enough.waiting nxt time.
HOH MUN KHIAW HAPPY BIRTHDAY.
finished ..
friends step by step back.
leave me ,mun q,wenyin.
i want go WATSON bought somethings.
we shoot.













then go EVOLUTION there. chat with munq friend.
play there. funny there.
my mother called me. and scold me == ish. moody jor.
angry kawkaw. WTF. ==
back munq house. and eat her cake .
she dont like eat CHOCOLATE gah.
her friends bought still give her for present.==
GOSH. how solve the cake?==









until back home. tired til i die er...beh tahan~
sleep 99.