Continue our future?:)

I back Ipoh on thursday night. 23th December.
I stay my cousin house one day of overnight.
then i think i next day back my home and went to find him.
This few days on HK. i miss my Mother and Him.
But,can make sure i most miss that one is him. i never leave him one day or two day.
This Trip will leave him for almost one week. for me , is a long long time.
hard to spend my days. everynight hope can On Facebook to told him , i missing him.
Finally, i really back Ipoh.
Sorry , my first target not to found you. i Online Facebook to check him.
i wanna know he this few days when i leave him, what he did.
I view his Blog with expectation.
He promise me he will wrote down this few days without me is how to spend.
Actually I never tried the day without him. But, he tried.
Sigh, i am sorry to him. When i leave him few days , he will cranky.
But, if i have choice. i will choose dont want to go .i dont wanna leave him.
when i saw his blog. i had one conclusion . He will break up with me.
did everything without mood. my heart already get hurt.
we quarrel whole night with tears until almost 7am.
You know this time i make a decision. I choose break up.
and i know he get mad and hurt deeply. i know all is my fault .
If i treasure him wont have this happened. if not we are should happiness now.
I am tired to cried. this worst since the quarrel. Is hurt each other.
Next day, i changed the relationship on Facebook. I am Single.
after i click the SAVE, i hope i am dreaming. but, i should accepted the truth.
i sent a message to him. for last message .
Not dare to pick up his call. finally , my cousin pick up herself. talk to him.
actually i am beside her and listen what their talking about.
already tired on this situation. Quarrel, Cry,Angry,Jealous.
Sigh. when can spend the days without those?
All my friend knew we is Break up. Bad news Or Good news?
Kong call me . she ask me what happened we had. Thanks for care.
My friend date me to go out.I thought i will stay at home alone.
Christmas eve i should hang out with my friends and happily.
Single Day for me.
Lavish. I dont know how to cheer up. only know drink alot.
i accompany Kong went to toilet. she is crying. she make me thinking about him again.
She affect my mood. Gosh, I cried again.
they are looking my crying face. is fucking shame.
i destroy the ambience. Celim and 'Him' wipe my tears.
they ask me where is my boyfriend .How i answer them?
Sorry im drunk. cant stand and walk steady.
when i drunk, i know i am talk alot nonsense .cant remember.==
and I hope i can see him again. But where is him?
I miss him. I really hope he will get back .
they are help me to find him, When he hugging me i thought i am dreaming .
i can feel his warm body , i can hear his sound. :)
feel like more safety. because he is only one can give me safety.
hmm.... why i will went his house? I hurt his mother when i drunk.
ophss. sorry to his mother. i not purposely.
finally, i overnight there. that means we recouple back?or what?
my mother missed call many times . i will get scold from my mother.
But , never mind. He is most important. I dont care all else anymore.
Actually , our relation is become better? why i had no feeling?
Hope we will continue the happiness life.
Yesterday , 26th december.
I stay at home whole day. at night.
Someone told me somethings on msn. that is top secret for we both.
about Lavish that night.i think i would have felt. she told me is real.
i cant do anything, i should be a good girlfriend.:)
This is what i should do now. i want a happiness life with him and enjoyment.
Babe I Love You So Much.
You remember a song? 'Hurt so Bad'
this song not prove i am sad or get hurt .
the lyrics is got meaningful


Bady I Love You So Much
你走了 我的心在淌血
Bady You Hurt Me So Bad
想要你回到 我的世界
Bady I Love You So Much
你给我的诺言 已经瓦解
Bady You Hurt Me So Bad
只要我们都爱着 无论多苦都值得


I really love you. Edwin WonG .

'' A Sigh Of The Night''

Tonight is a bad night for me again.
i think i will happy to spend t0nighy.
finally, is make me disappointed.and i know i not important for him also.
i miss him also. but i moody , i dont know can talk with who.
dont know can find who, im helpless. who understand me?

Dont talk others,
just now. i 12 something arrived my home.
10something, i claim my brother fetch me go his house.
so luckily, he promise already.
when the brother's friend come to fetch , go in the car.
text him said, wanna find him.
i know you are work soon.but, i hope i can see you awhile.i know i make you moody,i thought want make you happy.
you dont want i come find you. i reach at the CC near your house.
not dare to tell you and find you. i will add your annoyance.
stay at CC with my brother, chat with Oscar.
online chat with my mother, want she came to fetch me back.
i stay at there is useless, wait until what time also cant see you.
when my mother fetch me. buy the oreo-mcflurry.
i want my mother through his work place.i hope i can see him.
finally, his shadow also didnt see .im failure.
why?
I should blame myself. why couple also cant be a good example.
Am i childish? may be~

Take Care. please.

Exam today.subject ENGLISH. i thought i get confidence on this .
But. when i open the first page of exam paper. my face is changed.
that is not easy i thought.slept awhile do awhile.
finally is perfunctory to done it. i think i can expect my score.
when want to think out a composition, my brain is thinking about Jou Gong.
always feel wanna sleep.
i think it because yesterday.i awakened because my Lovely Mother.
Repeatedly make noisy , make my hard to sleep.
i think i got a big big panda eyes on my face. can imagine this is very ugly.
and today, we discussed about a new promotion from DiGi.
''DiGi Easy Prepaid'' got 3 friends and family.
Only that 3FnF ,call an text wont reduce the credit from phone.
is that great for us? we discuss and imagine about when using this things.
can track and check theirs boyfriends whenever and anywhere.

Back home. text my Bie . seriously, i miss him much today.
after bath, continue to text with him. he called me.
chat awhile, i away. said when i finish will find me for 3G.
finally, we waiting each other. misunderstand again. wait until i sleepy .
gradually , i fall to sleep. sorry .is tired
when i sleep soo sweet, Cb her is calling me. forgive me , ignore your call.
7something, i text him and her back, chat alot.
he said want buy dinner for me, i said i wanna eat OREO MCFLURRY.
my good boyfriend already promise me said buy ''Wan Tan Mee'' and Milo,Orea mcflurry .
finished conversation.i went ate my dinner.
afterward online ! my relative is visit us. especially my grandfather.
He is calling me. he said he is waiting me outside my house.
take 2 pack of stuff to me. very thanks you came my house purposely.
he is on the way home.and i enjoy my Mcflurry,is freaking delicious for me.
even though , i know that will be fat . but whatever,ate first.
sorry i watching drama ignore you already.End the drama,i quickly text him.
wanna hear his sweet and cutie sound. but just awhile.
i sad and cry. he accompany me the time very short. heartpain.
he going work at midnight, he sleep not enough in this 2days.
you thought you really is a Superhuman? even though a superman also need rest.
you are stronger than superhero. where your strength come from?
know i will worry? sigh. please .go sleep when you cant endure.dont stubborn brace until you illness!!! i feel compunction . and regret ;(

take care yourself carefully when you at the single time without me.
I love you my future husband .

09,10-10-2010 is bad day.

Know wat festival today? 10.10.10.
hmm... feel like special day. but dont know got wat special for mexD
whatever. write blog better right?
erm... yesterday went Parade after Jusco
went parade with my lj .and kelvin.
walk around at parade.and ate at sushi king.
those dai siu jie call we go jj as fast as possible.arrival immediately.
kelvin chitchat with his friends, we both went converse meet calvin for them.
chat awhile. ;D is playful and funny there.
is time to going Jusco.
reached JJ.
when saw them. intend walk together.but,not really that good for me.
Them. but they look like discord between friendship.
we cant walk gather together. later quarrel at there.
walk each other better . i hope i can joined them to shopping.
hm..... i cant. it is complicated between us.
we go cinema there see which mvoie are available and nice one.
hm... alot of i wanna watch but still not available.waiting next time.
Watch cartoon. xD
bought the ticket, and went eat again.
munq told me, they want back home soon.
leave her alone.we join her.accompany her, edwin and kelvin keep tease her.
make munq angry and feel helpless. cutie her.
wanna go secret recipe gea. but kelvin tease her.make she angry !go away already.
just bought the New Yoke cheese cake packaged in plain boxes.
and accompany munq waiting his daddy fetch her.
while we walk, my mr.wong are typing with my phone with someone.
texting who? my male friend, he is become mad and angry.
said want give him warning. == i dumbfounded. i want stop him?
i didnt said anythings. just worry him . i know he jealous xD
when he jealous and the serious face, i like it. .
is time to watch movie.
Sammy Adventures: The Secret Passage.
regret watch this. bored so much. sigh.
finish the movie, kelvin back his house, leave we both, went mr.edwin house xD
stay at house flirting and watch TV at there. 11somethings, back home.
chat on the phone.after slept.

today wake up early,ownself cook at kitchen.is that weird?
eat finish , my little babe called me. chat awhile, he play Dota with friends soon.
i online myself. play each other.
ate Wu Gui Bao just now. arghh. so full one. become my dinner already!
i keep online until now. chat with friends.
he keep play until now. arghhh... gik sei ngo lar.
i act angry purposely. want he worry about me..
Cb him. busy so much .wanna punch him ==
texting with him also like moody.
Mr.Edwin Wong. wat happen to you today? ==

Nonsense !

Today, i suddenly moody because of him.
when i going shower,he already offline.
i can feel his mood changed.but i still dont know wat happened.
take the initiative to text him. he is crying. why he cry?
finally he told me.
i hate it. ''they say'' wat is ''they say''?
those gossip , comment, nonsense will affect the feelings between us.
that means our love was not stable. why just a little things will make us unhappy.
why just a nonsense will break the feelings of us. this is fragile.sigh
need to take my ex to compare with you?is this necessary?
i always cant give you feel safety, i cant let you regain confidence!
arghhh. i still is a loser. failure again and again.
i blamefulness.
i have a bad impression on others. always destroy my image.
if i really is a bad girl. please leave me. the farther is the better.
no need spend and waste the timing on me.
but . i couple with you is my choice, i dont care someone else talk malarky.
heard dont put in heart. that is not important for us.
that is freaking brainless and i hate those bastard.i dont care whoever.
let me know who the fuck are spreading rumors.
i hate them. i hate !!!!!!!ish.....

At last~
Edwin Wong, i love you.but i really dont know how to prove it.
you still cant feel my loyal.
speechless at all.i had nothing to do,say!

Sorry

Almost 1month . why he still look like unhappy always?
i scare he crty, scare he unhappy, scare his expression is sad face!
if im your girlfriend, i wont let you sad,wont let you think too much.
should everyday spend with smile. but why i cant did it?
Am i failure? im not a best for you.
I know i stubborn , dont listen your advise or notice.
always make you sob or long gas. keep tell me this ,advise me those.
actually, i feel noisy and annoyance, but on the other side, i feel this is happiness.
i got a considerate of my boyfriend. i hope he can keep take care me carefully .
sorry, i always make you moody. and sob.
i know you dislike to hear they name. i still say out purposely.
this not prove i still missing them. i just want make you jealous ,want you care me more.
but, you misunderstand my imply.sorry , always remind their name.
i swear and promise i wont say their name again.
i only thinking and say your name. i Love Edwin Wong.
you tell me never kneel people before. although i dont know real or not.
but that day you kneel for me, you make me so shock, i scare let people saw it.
you said want i marry to you. xD. is that funny?
for me, i feel shame. but my heart is feel happy . i accept you request.
hahahahahahahahaha. like a drama acting.
i hope myself can marry to you. but who can expect future?
our couple life, i hope as long as i can. i dont wanna leave you.
you also is my important person in my heart.
you know? i anxious about your everythings.
although you know me more. i cant learn from you. learn to comprehend to a people.
you really is a genius. may be this reason i love you .

today at school, my friend told me your facebook status post some sad things.
when i hear, im moody and worry , cant concentrate in school.
i make you sad again, i blame myself.
As fast as possible to go home. and online and saw your status.
i think many reason and why. wat i did? wat you saw from anywhere?
why you get hurt? arghhhh. why dont tell me? why always keep it and dont say out.
want me guesS?
sigh...like that, i feel more sob. for you , i just a useless girlfriend.
give you sad, give you hurt, give you worry, give you unhappy.
sorry.
im useless. may be not worth :(

Make a decision

We couple already got 1week more. i can feel he is best for me.
Whatever my daily life, he also meticulous.
when i hungry he will buy something to me purposely.
but. i dont know wat can i dedicate to him. sorry about that.
my friend said we so sweet. hmmm,,, is that true?
start from that day , our relation already change.
is a good deed? would you hate me?
our relation will change to harmful?
I love you increasing daily.
I hope i can see you everyday ,
I hope i can hug you everyday.
I hope i can hold your hand everyday.
I hope i can kiss you everyday.
I hope i can hear your heartbeat everyday.

i like to tease with you when you wanna kiss me.
at first , i couple with you , i just give a chance for each other.
we get on well with each other.it is a good beginning,.

gosh, my heart deeply touched by your sincerely.
your every movement, i will remember and saved in my mind,.
when you shy , when you blush,, make me more like you.
you always coax me with blandishments.
hmm... you thought im 3years old? but it can make me feel happy.
the process of falling in love, i can feel im the happiness girl.
but, i scare the happiness life will take back. a short happiness life.
i rather you be my hubby. can permanently?
i scare you will leave me , i not dare to put alot of feelings in love :(
really want keep the distance. im freaking moody . argghhh...
Finally , last words , i love you

Recently.

Day by day . already 1 week didnt update me blog.
Wednesday. adsent today.
yesterday, a terrifying nightmare appear on my dream.
midnight 3something, be wet with cold sweat.
my mother not beside me. make me have a fear!
the nightmare is like. hm...... i going to die.
NO! NO!NO! fortunately, just a nightmare.
i cant alone stay at bedroom. must find a person rescue and accompany me.
i call him . edwin .. hahahhahahahhahahahaha.
we chat 1hour, he really is my best Brother.best Sister.
thank you accompany me yesterday when i frightened.
and. today , my daddy gonna back to work.
he will leave me again for work ,oversea
chinese new year, he will back again , you know, i reluctantly he leave!
miss my daddy so much.

I relationship with my classmate on Facebook.
outsider dont misunderstand, we just a friend. no any feelings on her.
'HER' she is a girl , lesbian. you thought im will become lesbian?
I WONT!!!!
even though , i am like/love girls before. But, i changed

My exam result,
OH MY GOSH, feel compunction about those Red Score.
Sigh, i not dare let my mother see that result.
im whole class of no.18 , worst 99
hm....

Merdeka. Hari Kebangsaan is coming soon.
countdown? where i can go?
bla bla bla,troublesome and annoyance.
i wanna go clubbing er. hm...... should how?

Honeykiss, i miss you
Daddy , i miss you
Brother, i miss you
Friends, i miss you.


The End :)

you are my everythings.

non-stop missing
non-stop thinking
non-stop crying.
non-stop hurting...
all NONSTOP.
all is about you.
all is yours
all is your memory.
Mr.D . you know i mssing you?
you know miss a person very suffer?
never mind. i know ownself.
when you leave until today. everyday also cryed.
until now also crying for you. come back to me. can?
even though is read your name also will make me cry.
you really dont love me anymore?
i intend accept others . and quite give up you.
finally, my heart only got you.
i miss you hand help me wipe my tears.
but, start from we break that day. this is impossible.
why want revenge to me? i surrender.
Love is wat?
Promise is wat?
only a kiss ,only a embrace also no meaning.
I Cant Leave Without You. is true.
just let me Love you quietly.
. already moody continue to write anythings.






End.

Dream wont come true

At Barroom yesterday. i drunk.
i saw many friends there. long time no see.
drunk~ i sat at Barroom parking there. my friends is take care me.
i few time want to fall down. cant steady myself.
Thomas ask me why drink so much. ask where is my boyfriend.
he means is 'him' . said go Sg find him.
you know this sentence is like a knife stick in my heart.
didnt cry become cryed,how many times i cryed for him again?
if i can go Sg . i must going find him. but he already got girlfriend.

.Today wake up early, went hospital visit my grandpa again.
4something, i went my cousin to online with laptop.
8something, i ate with cousin at outside.
i gotta back home. after shower , i lie down on the bed.
gradually,i fall to sleep.

next day. Monday.
Exam day again. im moody again. i missing him so much.
i hope he wont appear on my mind. but cant do it.
before start the exam. ''she'' tell me. many happen about saturday.
those events, i just only can said UNBELIEVABLE.make me so shock.
and. she advise i give up him better, i wanna ask reason, but exam is start.
this question appear in my mind so long time. i rather go suicide. i cant concentrate on exam.
finally, finished. i ask her many times.
eventually. she tell me. he already got girlfriend.
when i hear this. my brain is stop to thinking everything. is blank.
only drop the tears. i really want give up? hurt so much!
give up a person not easily . you know? need a lot of time. need waste many energy.
i can quit clubbing for him. i really love him.
but i think i just can hide the feelings in my heart deeply.
is time to give up all. is a nightmare, please dont let me dream about him again.
dont give me a expectation. will not dream come true.
dream and the facts the difference. so cruel. hopeless.
sigh... how can cheer up?

If We Ever Meet Again

What is someone like you doin in a place like this?
Say Did you come alone or did you bring all your friends?
Say whats your name , What are you drinking
Think I know what are you thinking
Baby whats your sign tell me yours and ill tell you mine
Say Whats somebody like you doin in a place like this

Ill never be the same if we ever meet again
Whooooon't let you get awaaay
Say if we ever meet again,
This free-falls, got mee sooo, kiss me all,
Night, Don't ever let me go
Ill never be the same if we ever meet again

Do you come here much? I swear ive seen your face before.
Hope You don't see me flash but I cant help but want you more, more
Baby tel me whats your story I aint shy don't you worry
Im flirtin' with my eyes, I wanna leave with you tonight.
Do you come here much? ive gotta see your face some more
(some more cause baby i)

I'll never be the same - if we ever meet again
Won't let you get away-ay - say, if we ever meet again
This free fall's, got me so
Kiss me all night, don't ever let me go
I'll never be the same

If we ever meet again

If we ever meet again
I'll have so much more to say (if we ever meet again)

If we ever meet again
I wont let you go away (said if we ever meet again)

If we ever meet again
I'll have so much more to say (say if we ever meet again)

If we ever meet again
I wont let you go away-ay-ay

I'll never be the same - if we ever meet again
Won't let you get away-ay - say, if we ever meet again
This free fall's, got me so
Kiss me all night, don't ever let me go
I'll never be the same
If we ever meet again

I'll never be the same - if we ever meet again
Won't let you get away-ay - say, if we ever meet again
This free fall's, got me so
Kiss me all night, don't ever let me go
I'll never be the same
If we ever meet again

im annoyance

Saturday Clubbing. Barroom. drunk.
Sunday JJ. late.hmmmm. my cousin ffk ~
i really hope my cousin can go JJ with me.
Ccl, Mun q,Pikachu,Bee,Kong cl and me.
intend watch movie. but i g0 there already late.
only watch 15minutes more movie is end. ==
after then,we went bought somethings. Go Coffee Bean drink.
we all almost back at 5something.
firstly, stay at Mun q home there to waiting .
we 3 chat many topi in her bedroom.talk without cease
actually , i not first time go her house and bedroom.
when i saw her bedroom. i just can say Messy.
dont know use word to describe her room.
Back to my cousin house.
1/8/2010 is my youngest cousin birthday. she just 1year old.
is a cute Baby.we go celebrate her birthday.
a lot of people there. her parents invite many friends and relative too.
ate the Buffet there. and saw my cousin ,we chat and ate there.
my cousin is a TADIKA teacher. hahahahaa. 20years old already.
she look like polite and pretty!
stay there few hours, is time to back.
i take photo with Ce Lim phone. >>>


Afterward, i go shower and clear my bedroom. look like messy too.
my brother using my laptop, i cant online that moment.
when my brother leave , i online quickly. i miss my Facebook..
my cousin Hk msn nudge me. she ask me how about today JJ?
i tell back her. i moody today and tak syok also.!plus got abit angry.
i tell her wat happen and express my feelings.
we webcam and use handfree to talk. i thought want use phone to called her.
but she said dont want. use msn chat better than phone.
we chat already few hours. im mood become better.
thanks for my cousin accompany. we chat people gossip. and bad things.
comment on people. and many many.
about school, family, friends. and love. when i can see her again?
finish chat with cousin. next one is Edwin , he find me before when i chat with my cousin.
i neglect. hm... sorry about it.
we both chat about nonsense also can chat 1hour more.
bored```~~
almost 5am. i still didnt sleep, 5something,my mother call me wake.
but. end the call, i sleep back again...
i missed my bus. = WTF. dont scold me and blame. just because i freaking tired.
haih.
arrived the school ,somebody absent again.and no Perhimpunan.
form 3 student are confront their trial exam .
i sit with Yee Ling. chat many!!!
after rest, i get ready to sleep in the classroom. sleep complementary .
sleep at library,and classroom. times up!
back home, keep sleeppppppppppppppppppppppppppp
wake up at 6somethings. and eat my dinner. and online.
got a Bad News. my grandfather is sick. he already 70++ .
is very worry about him. got a sentences is 家有一老如有一宝。
hm....... annoyance..... pray for my gandfather.

Nobody can be trust?

Today,not a special day for me.
may be write blog is my habit already.
wat i want to express today?hm..... i also dont knw.
may be i boring now. want get somethings to do.
our life gt alot of things to worry or think over.
im 16years old.
wat i worrying now?
4 parts, Family ,School record, Friendships and Love
such of these i need to worry.
Family. i am single-parent family. only got my mother beside me.
i scare when i lost my mother.wat will happen to me.
seem like a orphan. my father is oversea. dont know how long can see him once.
School record. When i study at secondary school. i gradually become a naughty student.
may be is friends affect me become a stubborn and naughty.
and my result little by little is worst.
gosh!!! feel like self reproach.apologize to my Family.
Friendship. im form4 now. when i stay at this phase.
everywhere is gossip around on you.
and not all of friends also can put much dependence on.
somethings can tell . somethings only can believe yourself.
i hate pretend. pretend like so friendly or close with whose.
if really want be a friend with whoever. please dedicate yours sincere.
i not saying who.please use your sincere treat your friends.
and dont selfish ,insult, arrogant ! this like making my feel strong dislike or disgust.
please respect yourself and others people.
Love. i be in love already 4times. got many memories of each others.
I agree a sentence. Love Is Blind.
when i falling in Love. i can neglect or ignore my family and friends.
every times when i separate with lover. i will learn from experience.
must always remind ownself dont easily to final conclusion.
every times experience barter with tears..
this is very cruel for me. hm.......
who can be worthy to trust?

delete you on my mind .

Skip the introductory.
hmm... at last friday ,means 23.07.2010 , i went fun fair with MUNQ.
we played madly at there. and played some terrifying things.
wat the hell ! when i play that things, i shout loudly. cause im afraid.
afraid until my tears is drop. and my leg is tremble.
many people will say ''fun fair'' only children will go ,include me also said like thah.
but when munq date me ,we played at there. i realize before im wrong.
that is playful. but waste alot of money also.
but, unlucky things is occur on me,I LOST MY PHONE.
actually. i didnt feel sob, i care about my memory card. it is collect my memories.
never mind, i still can play happily.
when i back home, i not dare to tell my mother anymore.
i thought she will scold me , she ready to go out. i online until she back home.
this time ,i must tell her, ermmm.................hardly to tell her.
finally i told.
hahhaahahahahhahahhahaha, she only said how can play until lost the phone.
it is praise or blame? xD i dont care.
already lost it. whatever lar. waiting the new phone.
this few days. is no contact , no text , no call.
look like bored, but so relax in this few days.awesome ...

next affair.
yesterday night, i online Facebook. is bored time.
i saw someone profile appear on my sight.
eventually, i view his profile.
wat i saw?
erm.... i think i dont know how to describe my feelings.only distressed
i must uncork my emotion, i only can say 'i cant stand it'
fortunately my cousin online Msn . i can find her to uncork,
we chat:

after we chat ,she make me recover the confidence and happy.

i swear i wont sob because of him again.

my cousin advise i deleted him on my facebook.

after that i can concentrate to others .wont think too much.

i will be happiness everyday. i miss you cousin , thanks you willing be my listener.

so late sleep yesterday, at school also without vigor. tired so much.

sleep until finish the school then back home shower and online .

online until i tired, start from 5somethings until midnight 1.

this is freaking enough . right?charge full battery

and ate supper and keep online. chatted with friends.

and view the facebook. boreddddd.

feel like long time didnt update my blog.

than i writing here, and recollect my memories.

i miss my Cousin

i miss my Dad& Mum.

i miss my Bro.

and many many .

i will become a person without annoyance.

Family is the First

Recently, dont knw wat going on my mood is fall to valley.
Even though date me or invite me.i almost all refuse.
who affect my mood?
school days or wat events. no interesting on anythings else.
this few weeks. my life seem like quiet ordinary.
sleep early. and wake early.
wat the hell going on of me?
i mAd. i know that is not a good things for me.
I Miss My Family. i need their accompany me always.
i hope my mother can accompany me. and i miss my brother.
although, he is freaking naughty, and always bully me. disturb me.
but i already habit he arise in my life everyday.
he leave for work.
whole place of house is very quietly. who else can chat with me?
yesterday midnight .
someone found me . say want i be his girlfriend.
woah. is that too shocked?suddenly my brain is blank.
is a joke. i buy his idea.
so fast accept the relationship. am i mad?
outsiders must misunderstand our relation.
but i also dont need to explain to everyone.

Everyday also iterate .
how can change my life?i want i everyday without annoyance.
everyday keep the smile to face up everyone.
i feel like lonely everyday. alot of friends equal alone .
i not means my friends is invisible. my friends is give my happy a moment.
when leave them? become alone again.

i miss my cousin Liew Yoke Xin. but i cant always see her.
she really is my good listener.she knw me many things.
and she care me also.she is like simple-minded, no scheming.
that why we so close. no secret. i like this feelings.
and my Lovely mother. she take care me everyday.
she is my all. she is my mother and my father. two in one.
i knw she everyday busy so much. but i also disturb and argue with her .
quiet SUI LUI BAO.
DAD. i waiting for you back. imissyou

erm.. i love a song now. : 21GUNS.
introduce lur. muackz.

keep smile.

didnt go school today.ape tu Parents Day.
my mother say dont want go listen my bad things from teacher.
i didnt force her. as she like.
no credit my phone.
lazy go reload.anythings chat at Facebook or Msn.
someone find me. i no mood to reply.
because he is not my cup of tea. and not i want.
in a suffer day now.
Spending.
how long ?how long?
need how long will steady?
will recover my wounds?
everyday act nothing.syok mie?
haih. but i cant let other people knw im still hurt.
Someone missing Someone.
thx my friends always take care me.
thx her understand my feelings.and console me.
when i take my phone. i just thinking him.
today so brave.i delete all the message about him.
but gt leave a litter bit in my phone.
recollect our memory.he is cute. .
i want habit my single life now,have a nice day .
have a new life. new people ,new target.new everythings .
You are become my memory .
special one :)
keep the smile to face up everyday.

be Strong

GOSH GOSH GOSH.
Break already.
1 MSG:i want to break. .
kay. all OVER.the end.
i accept.done.
i gave hurt again. haih.
whatever.i open facebook go change the relationship.
SINGLE.
i delete the relationship post. i dont want who else comments or like.
may be is best for me.we already no more feelings to each others.
as fast break as good.third times said Break. wat the feelings of this?
first time let a boy hurt me 3 times. first time initiative find a boy.
arghhh .suffer . you knw?
sunday.5somethings waked up thought many things. .i reluctant.
but i know we are OVER.
already impossible.
my mouth said want flirt many guys.
but my heart still thinking about him.
double dealing.im so sucks.
moody to spend whole day.
. already got many people know we happened.!
i know someone glad someone will console me.
ask me wat happen the relationship. i just can answer NOTHING HAPPENED.
act nothing to face up everyone.
my friends ask me. im fine?
yes. im fucking fine.. i can spend the suffer day .
i dont need him also have a excellent life..
PLEASE dont remind his name infront me. ,sigh.
at school today.
my friends feel im so sad .erm.... in front them act nothing and smile to face up.
i dont admit im sad. although is facts.
i need become strong. im a special . cant let own moody and down!
but i endure so long. finally , i cried out.
why so easy cried?. im so useless.
just a little setback .why will cried.
sigh.
she say . when we separate,final discover im still love him.
i had rather throw or forget the memories about him.
I DONT WANT.
when i recollect the memories.i will lose control . dropped my tears.
grrr.. i need tissue.
i need console.
i need times, to forget!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

waste time.

saturday. normal day also.

everythings proceeds as usual.

after ate lunch.i go out with mother.

go see house. new house. go play water there.

4somethings, i dont knw stay home for wat.

BORED BORED BORED.

i want brother play badminton with me.

5somethings until 7somethings. sweat.

after that,go eat dinner with mother and bro.

while i text with HIM ..

i only eat a little bit. and take photo there.

back .at home selfloving. take photo.

my hair look like tidy. xD

play awhile PSP .
and go shower. smelly from my body . xD
and i online awhile. chat with friends.
and actually i really miss him.haih.
waste my times to miss him. he also enjoy his clubbing, GOSH. im stupid.

HMK birthday

Friday 2.07.2010.
is our dai ka jie BIRTHDAY.
we all go parade Kbox celebrated.
walked awhile parade. then back Kbox sing k.
long time didnt sing 99.not enough.waiting nxt time.
HOH MUN KHIAW HAPPY BIRTHDAY.
finished ..
friends step by step back.
leave me ,mun q,wenyin.
i want go WATSON bought somethings.
we shoot.













then go EVOLUTION there. chat with munq friend.
play there. funny there.
my mother called me. and scold me == ish. moody jor.
angry kawkaw. WTF. ==
back munq house. and eat her cake .
she dont like eat CHOCOLATE gah.
her friends bought still give her for present.==
GOSH. how solve the cake?==









until back home. tired til i die er...beh tahan~
sleep 99.

talent dance

Saturday night 26.06.2010
5somehings sin reached home.
sunday 27.06.2010 .
7 soemthings start to slept,slept less than 3ominutes then waked up
prepare then go my school Dewan . events. TALENT DANCE.
wenyin bf sit beside me.we so bored at there. whole hall only abit audience.
0930-1330.halfway, go bought cigarette smoke at school outside.
continue go enjoy the show.
i saw ELECOLDXHOT dance.amazing ar.clap hand plus bravo!!!!


i shake hand with a member er. ophss. syok-nya

and saw EDDIE.handsome ....


finished then go parade Kopitiam ate and walk around.
i saw my cousin Jenny ,Jessica.
chitchat.
4somethings back home.
sleep til 1o, then ate dinner and bath continue my sweet dream
didnt online whole day and miss him. ;(

nonstop missing plus ashamed

24.06.2010.

kong chi ling absent. in classroom i seem like vigorous .
but all sleep there, only i keep talk without cease,
until rest, eat somethings .
back to school.suddenly my stomach uncomfortable ;(
arghhh. i keep groan is the classroom.
i diam diam sit at my seat. do nothing.teacher give homework i also ignore.
i cannot concentrated . fucking pain .
teacher also forgive me. see my expression teacher trust me.
i sleep on the table. actually i not sleepy.
i want use sleep to benumb painful.
sleep until finish school. turn me eyes uncomfortable.
haih.
back home. take out my lens. and go shower.
afterward, i text him and tell him i sleep soon.

25.06.2010
sleep til 2somethings, online, saw him and oscar online. MSN
he find me chatted. after turn oscar chatted.
i really dont need sleep . until went to school.
they said me ''cisin'' . == bla bla bla!!
5somethings, i go prepare ready go to school.
today my mother fetched me go ''pasar pagi'' ate.
then go school. continue our topic .xD talk nonstop.
today seni ,teacher assign the landscape painting to us.
my paint here.



gt 17 score only wor.==too sad.and very ugly.!!
correction my P.seni result paper.
finish school. we all ate at canteen.
we all everyday gather together with friends at canteen.
gradually , canteen is become our venue..
raining. weather so cold.sucks.
reached home. saw my mother ready to go out.
i follow her go tesco.
when i leave the car. occur some scandal.
gosh, shame like want hide in the hole....ashamed
i want buy somethings. i need ask her permission.but she not allow.
too expensive jor :(.
i lose temper of this affair.
until back home . still angry , neglect her,
go shower. and text him ,
soon, i slept! start from 5somethings until 3somethings , this is very enough!
i watch drama. watch til i cried. that is very touch you knw ? ( tam ching sut oon)
watch finish , then i wake up online , write my blog .
i saw my facebook. he post wall post to me er. haha! happy 99 lor.
i missing him er .. =) wat he doing now? huh~
suddenly i miss my dad,~ dad you fine there?

tired this 2 days

Yesterday is first day reopen school.
i reached school,waiting friends came.
but alot of them absent .only yee ling accompany me.
''perhimpunan ''is fucking bored. ishhh
back to classroom. keep slept until finished school.
suddenly yee ling and pikachu say hang parade.
we six , ate at kopitiam ,and buy clothes.
hang til 4somethings.
is raning wor. we go Dartist by taxi ,
reached there i saw my friends is training there.
funny dance, all not serious at there==
afterward me and munq go Mcd eat my love[ice cream]
we chat awhile...
a little while, my friends also ate at Mcd, we sat and chat together.
munq take photo covertly


whatever lar. also show this photo at here .xD
she want to back home, keep pressing me to back home.
allah. listen her gea, back lor.
reached her home , i only knw i need rest, sleep on her bed,
sleep so sweet. cause i exhaust my energy already.
when i slept.she is playing laptop.
7somethings i waked ,called my mother fetched me form her house.
because she want to go jj soon. i dont want disturb her.
before i back, she treat me eat cheese cake.


i didnt eat , my mother come fetched me.
reached home,after bathed, i text my Bie, but he didnt reply.
and i sleep lur,intil 2somethings i receive his msg and reply awhile,
my mother back, we both at living room watch drama and world cup.
and sleep half hours ,and go prepare going to school.
i sleep at last 3period, tired kawkaw errr.
i miss him errrrr.
haih. go canteen eat something and waiting my bus,
at home, bath and online. i saw he online but set to Busy,
then i set to Away, when i saw he nudge me.he is offline jor.
arghhhh. ''yau mou gao cor'' == .

Nelson cheah i Love you i Miss you . muackx.

miss Hk

last day get along with my cousin.

so late waked up. tired so so so much.

eat the lunch.and dessert .and online .

until 6somethings is time to packed up my clother ready to back my home.

afterward go eat dinner until almost 9. reached my home.

and put back the daily essentials .continue online.

Munq date me tomorrow go to Parade. i havent comfirm.

still want considering .

prepare all the things ready back to scholl.cause tomorrow reopen school.

means my suffer days is coming soon.

''perhimpunan '' every monday . and i often get catch . sigh.

stand under the sunlight, damn sucks.

... gosh.. i must sleep at the classroom.my favourite..

sienz nor. dim suen? i must late sleep tonight.

can i dont go to school tomorrow? boringggggggggg............

whatever lar.

i miss him ,her.

him is xxxxxx

her is LIEW YOKE XIN .

muackx.

sweet dream

yesterday. i chat with my cousin. we chat many topic.

all say people gossip.

THAT IS > secret xD.

chat til 5-6 am. actually i not so tired and sleepy.

but she wanna sleep . she sleep leave me alone !!

have no method. sleep unwillingly.

and listen song relax plus enjoy.

waked up at 10-11 ..that is not sufficient.

ONLINE...

oscar online jau call me ''betbet'' ==.. chibai mouth.

he told me already lose how much. but still want bet !! he sin+lan.

stubborn lar.

my cousin waked also. she also online.

we both keep online ,dont need let the PC rest for a while.

washed and brush . DONE. ate the breakfast at kitchen..we both talked without cease.

add the member , my grandmother join us xD

finished ate and talked.

we both back to room online each others.

2days didnt off the PC already. ==bored.it will spoil? xD

4somethings .

my cousin want to go tuition . her mother fetched.

leave me alone. i intend go jogging awhile.but that machine already spoiled.

bad luck . plus sucks.==

only can go sleep. sleep til 8somethings,cousin is back. awakened by her. ==

At the same time. 'he' is called me. i answered his call.

firstly, he ask me why dont replied his msg before. arghhh,i slept.

he at 'fok seng' . haih. i say okay lor. you tk plus bye . this is perfunctory talked.

MISS 9 HIM . you knw ==

dinner time ........

and i chatted with oscar.plus watched world cup . ..

at this time,have a guy find me. erm....... my Ex. sms chat awhile ..........

after that,i talked with my daddy few hours. suddenly . 'he' called me again.

i need to leave to living room to talked. ==he ask me at where.

nia ma. not miss me but ask DDY . ==chibai hai!!!

close his call. sad 7 sei. say miss me little bit also dont have. ==

continued talk with my dad. and eat the supper afterward bathed.cold 99

and go watch world cup also. plus i online the msn. chat while watched.

til. 4somethings. the competition finish. result is 0-0 ....two teams drew.

he is lose again. haih. keep bet ==control lar weyyyy.......

and last, i writing my blog now. missing him now. .

i sleeping soon. i need a sweet dream ........

GOOD NIGHT ALL

damn boring

Argh.... midnight.!!!!!
me and cousin online-ing.
plus sienz. someone bet ball. and watch the competition.
erm..... me just boring at home.
We at grandmother home already.
1 use pc online 1 use laptop online.
online each other. damn bored.
but all the gAmbler is enjoy their FIFA WORLD CUP.
haih.
bet bet bet... lose lose lose.
henggg,....curse them.
my cousin playing the games. leave me online write blog here..
what time ready to sleep?
but my grandmother not allow we both late than 2am wor.
erm..... i feel like wanna eat ! but. ..... i need to endure . cant eat.
this few day cannot go out.
that chibai kongcl date me out. but. i refuse her.
huh? so seh dek wer xD
i miss him er.......dim suen?
today my cousin said we both wont couple so long.
i think so and agree. because he already treat me cold and no feelings.
right?

sure will sad and disappointed . but at least we gt couple .
and he have serious to me. really enough~
long time didnt see him ~ miss ++++
i miss his sound.
i miss his people
i miss his call me bie
i miss his embrace
i miss his hand hold my hand
ALL MISS ~
im so childish. i knw. ...but let me imagine awhile lar

he still watching the fifa world cup .
i hope when he finish ....he will miss me ,find me.
ILY so much.

boyfriend plus girlfriend equal to couple.
WRONG ANSWER =(
sigh ....

cousin HERE. i need her xD
good cousin I DAMN LOVE YOU HK

suffer day

FIFA world cup proceeding .
my mother and i enjoy the competition.
wat country vs wat country..bla bla bla.
already attract on the televison... keep watch till finish the competition at midnight
someone bet with friends wor. ==
who is that dont want say lar. chibai him ==
bet your head. win then never mind . but lose leh?haih.
now is enjoy the holiday ...2week wer. arghhh
not enjoyed. is spend my suffer day...
boring til die soon. I WANT TRIP !! =(
but whatever lar. i knw my mother is busy about the work...
i only can stay at home lur.
my times table only gt internet,text,eat,sleep,watch....those.
gosh... how spend the time.......
this is about my boring day.

11062010
friday means is barroom/club9 Devil Party.and shopping with my mother at parade
''he'' go clubbing wer. xD.........very rare xD....
but we are argue and ''cold war''
arghhhhhhhhhhh........ so discrepant.
ish. i dont care already. drink 99.
3bottle more. already drunk 9 jor.
== already long time didnt drunk .. ==
when i drunk i mad. pull him. and hug him tight tight ..
ILY lurr.
suddenly a lot of people go outside the barroom.
huh? wat happen?...........
WHACK people. ==.... fierce worrrrrrrrr
gt a guy molest someone girlfriend. too bad.
wat the fuck!! so dare that guy. whack til he whole face blood!! haha
''dei sei'' HAHAHAHa.
already whack that guy. went ''fok seng'' yum cha...
ish.. drunk-ing == i reclined on his shoulder ....blur blur.
rest awhile .. he need back home jor....kay lur.
really reluctant .but also let him back.
i want to back home also. reached home.
i text him. tell him i already back home.
but.... he scold me why dont tell him any happen .
arghhhh. this scandal how open mouth to tell him?==hope he will und my feelings .

night dears ;) ILY.N

13062010 sunday ,
hang out with my dear cousin. HK.
long time no see. knw i miss you so so much?haha is truth,
erm... 1somethings reach PARADE..
woah.. knw? she is so cute. and treat me STARBUCK.
she is rich glo xD.we enjoy at starbuck. and carmen come find her.
we chit-chat awhile. keep talk about whose gossip.lalala.
walk around and around, the CB cousin no need care about money.
keep bought clothes==... that why i say she rich ==
almost 5 she and her parents fetched her back.
and i find edison and miiyo accompany me. til my mother fetch me back.
we went KOPITIAM there while waited my mother.
REACHED.
on the way....
arrived home. remove the make up and eat.
and text him. butttttttttttttttttttt.....he didnt reply.
i thought he is busy ..then i sleep lur.
11somethings ..... i still waiting receive his msg..never mind.
text him again. same. no reply. DIM YEN OH?
haih.
he want my cousin pass a message to me. sucks.
no credit wor. allah,.i online lor....chat awhile .. done.
is time to slept. he so busy on MSN == haih.